Self Revelations - October 2023

I just finished listening to a 3hour seminar about the Germanic Healing Framework by Yolande Norris Clarke (German New Medicine, if you will, but she doesn’t like to call it that) and whilst listening I had many profound realizations. Now, I can’t yet explain to you how this Germanic Healing Framework works, because I haven’t quite grasped it yet for myself. All I know is that it feels important for myself and my healing journey, and that there has already been a shift and acceleration of healing for me.

At the time of the webinar, I had been experiencing nerve pain in both legs, sore throat, and sore ears. This particular bout of body discomfort had been going on for a week and a half or so, waning and waxing in intensity each day. None of these sensations are new to me, in fact they have each come and gone with varying intensity, for years. This time, no amount of tinctures, stretching, yoga, salt baths, or general “taking it easy” was helping. I was feeling frustrated, and down, and uncomfortable in my body. The discomfort in my body was particularly irritating to me, because I had been actively working to bring more pleasure into my life, into my body, into my being. I was doing yoni steams, breast massage, dancing, and in general trying to do things that felt good in my body.

While listening to the seminar (or salon, as Yolande calls it), I started noticing my self talk. I was always complaining to Nico (my partner) about something. There was always some ache or pain in my body that was bothering me. No matter how much love I sent to my body, I still felt uncomfortable. I also kept complaining about how I could never get it all done. Looking after the house and the children felt impossible. The kitchen was always a mess, the house was always a mess. There was never enough time and I always felt sluggish. My business wasn’t going anywhere. There was never enough time to work on it. In my lowest moments I would feel like I had no friends, that I was a shitty mother, a shitty partner, a shitty business owner, and that everything in general was just too much. I felt useless and overwhelmed.

Yolande offhandedly mentioned that in this Germanic Healing Framework, MS and autoimmune diseases such as fibromyalgia were often caused my a self-devaluation conflict within the psyche. (I had been worrying just hours earlier that perhaps my seemingly chronic nerve pain was developing into something like fibromyalgia).

I can’t do it. There’s not enough time. It’s too much. These were the three main phrases in my vocabulary. Then it hit me - BAM! What if my physical discomfort was a reflection of my mental chatter, and not vice versa? What if my body discomforts were simply mirroring my mental beliefs about myself and my life?

I was choosing to be a victim of my life. I was creating the discomfort, the heaviness, the overwhelm.

What if I chose differently? “It doesn’t have to be hard,” I told myself. “It doesn’t have to feel so heavy. It doesn’t have to be too much. I can do it. In fact, I am doing it.”

It might seem simple (and it is simple!), but this realization, revelation if you will, completely changed the the rest of my week. Suddenly I had more energy, and everything felt lighter. I was able to do my daily tasks (and more, even) with more ease. The next day I noticed that my pain was markedly reduced (in all three areas). The relief I felt was palpable, and it has continued!

I wanted to share this story with you because it feels like an important reminder to us all to take stock of and take responsibility for our self talk, our mental chatter. Write it down and feel into it. Experiment with it. Be playful. Have fun!

• What changes are happening for you right now?

• What self talk/mental chatter is going on for you? How is this self talk playing out in your life?

• What if you chose to believe something different? What would you choose?